Validation – A poem

Every few years there’s a guy who comes into my life and disrupts my process

But I can only be at fault because I allow him to

All I want is somebody to talk to

Somebody who wants to talk to me

And every time I find myself giving more than I receive

Sometimes I try to be a strong woman who knows what she wants

I set the boundaries for the relationship and I don’t require much

Then later on down the line I’m left empty and unhappy because I gave myself away before anybody claimed to have wanted me in the first place

I can’t help but to be insecure and feel like I’m not good enough

I’m always just enough to be around but not enough to be desired

One day I want a husband and a family but I’ll never get there if I keep letting people use me before I get to him

Because now he’ll see me as broken and undesirable

All because I gave someone else the perks of his wife without commitment

This pattern of lust and uncertainty ends today

This interruption of my process will stop

I am a strong woman who knows what I want

And when you find me you will see that I am not broken

I may be used but I am not weak

And my misinterpretation of love will no longer suffice

I won’t let another guy disrupt my process with uncertainties, potential, lies and manipulation

That all ends here

So when you see me know that I’m not the same person who needed validation